29.10.08

Hmmm...

feel like writing but have no idea what to write about. I study quite a bit since returned and indeed I ask myself WHATFOR??? Does it matter anyway? Sure I'd get a better job perhaps even find one where I can be very passionate in coz I love it... but does it truly matter?
I don't know.
Just listening to Linkin Park's song: No Road Left

Standing alone with no direction
How did I fall so far behind?
Why Am I searching for perfection?
Knowing it’s something I won’t find In my fear and flaws
I let myself down again
All because [Chorus]
I run
Till the silence splits me open
I run
Till it puts me underground
Till I have no breath
And no roads left but one When did I lose my sense of purpose?
Can I regain what’s lost inside?
Why do I feel like I deserve this?
Why does my pain look like my pride? In my fear and flaws
I let myself down again
All because
I let myself down
In my fear and flaws [Chorus]
I run
Till the silence splits me open
I run
Till it puts me underground
Till I have no breath
And no roads left but one
No roads left but one In my fear and flaws
I let myself down again
All because I run
And the silence splits me open
I run
And it puts me underground
But there’s no regret
And no roads left to run

What I love about the song is when he sings "I run". Yeah... there's a lot good music out there. It's like a drug... you get addicted to it. While I was traveling I've never had an iPod or a similar device. Somehow it helped me focus more on the surroundings.
Why do I write all this? I don't know...

Let's see whether I can figure out WHAT REALLY MATTERS IN LIFE (for me)?

Perhaps it is corporation among people instead of simply studying alone in your dormitory. This system just feels wrong...

Perhaps I'm just missing the freedom I had during my travels. Luckily I know freedom only happens in your mind so I can raise my spirits without much effort... JUST BE :-)

I could write loads of paragraphs about the current financial crisis, the documentary Zeitgeist Addendum
or The Illusion of Reality etc.

Is it true that there are rules in our reality? Such as hard work, positivity and cleverness lead to success (at least to what majority of humans perceive as success)? Or is all this just another illusion? Is everything around us just created by our minds? I don't know and admittedly it's wild speculation from my point since I cannot understand most of what science and spiritualism puts out nowadays. However I got the feeling they point into this direction. If so think it's justified to ask WHY, WHAT FOR? To eradicate our Karma if we got one? I don't know. Maybe I'll never know, but does it matter to know? I guess not. Just do what you truly think is right to do! That's actually the only constructive thought this whole philosophical nonsense has brought me *haha*

From time to time I might post some thoughts I got in my mind... regardless of how stupid or intelligent they may be.

!!!ROCK'N'ROLL!!!

Beautiful women giving a beautiful interview!

17.10.08

Brief Review of summer 2008

Fellow travellers, family members and whoever else read my blog:

That's it I'm back in Leeds and surprisingly happy!

I wanna thank everybody for reading and hope you got some inspiration from one or another thought. For myself it has been an extraordinary journey and expanded my horizon in a way I couldn't have imagine beforehand. The main lesson I drew from this journey is that I ought to do what I believe I should be doing as consequently everything seems to work out my way if I just believe in it. This of course preassumes that you know yourself so you can be aware of your wants and needs and most important be able watch yourself... to be the observer. I'm convinced that if everybody would truly knows himself, so he/ she would be able to pursue his own interests general society would be at least mentally/ spiritually way more advanced. As one couchsurfer from India expressed it in a reference: " its the inability for a man to remain content within himself that leads to most of the evil on this planet".
It's not that difficult to attain such a state of being... you only need to want and be open for the occurring solutions. Although I'm not religious by any means I gotta admit the bible was right in saying something like: You'll find if you would only start searching.
I doesn't matter where you are, what you are doing, where you are going... the only thing that really counts is your stage of mind. Quote from unknown: "A situation is only as bad (good) as you think it is."
Go and find your dreams and no matter whether you're going to fulfill them or not... it's all about the way, the path, journey. That's how I define carpe diem. Be conscious about anything you're doing in the present and as long as you're not fully convinced you're doing the right thing there's something to work on... in that sense I gotta lot of work to do :)

Happy travels, work, holidays, life, blablabla...

I might write an entry from time to time... the latest would be the pre-christmas time when I come back from Denmark/ Germany/ Sweden.

Hasta la vista!

Philippe

P.S.: pictures of the 2nd part of the journey still haven't been developed... too expensive in UK :-S
 
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